Miscellanea

Miscellanea from the Lost Quarter and beyond.

Dress Accordingly

Winter is the most honest of seasons. Intent laid bare to the bone. The universe is unforgiving, this part of it especially. Dress accordingly.  

The people who talk of the magic of a white Christmas, the wonder of snow, do so because it is infrequent where they are from. A rare occurrence whose arrival does seem portentous. And like any spell, it will pass and the world will be set to rights. Here we know better. Here we know the winter is a conqueror and we its subjects, that the wind has a bite to draw blood. 

Which is not to say there is not beauty to be found, but it is a forbidding kind. There is a silence that comes with snow, especially as it is falling, a hush settling upon the world. Everything distant and still. The way ahead is unbroken, no footprints to guide us. We can look back and watch our footsteps slowly vanish. 

That is the truth of the universe. All our furious, burning effort will come to nothing in the end. All our monuments will be covered over and our words will be forgotten beneath the swirling drifts of time. And we will find ourselves distant and still. 

There is a comfort in that understanding. All that matters is who we are now and what we do together. Come closer. Stay warm. 

Field Notes

Being a record of certain phenomena found in the environs of the Lost Quarter.

Red Ribbon

He first glimpsed the sister through the trees that surrounded the Faulkenbourg Place. Since moving there it had become his habit to walk between the rows, starting from the laneway that led to the road and ending when he had circumnavigated the property and returned to the other side of the lane. The yard itself was quite large with extensive pens for cattle, grain bins and storage sheds for equipment, all in various states of disrepair. Thistle and brome grass overgrew the lanes between the corrals and buildings. They grew between the trees too, but he quickly wore down a trail. He liked being among the trees, unable to see to the farthest horizon as seemed the case anywhere else he stood in these parts. There was a hush there, a quiet, as if he’d journeyed to another place.  

The wind was blowing – it was always blowing – bending the branches and fluttering the leaves, shifting things from light to shadow and back again. She was in the field just beyond the trees, passing through the stalks of wheat with a surprising grace, a red ribbon trailing from her hair. She didn’t seem to notice him, moving alongside the trees toward him. He called out to her, not wanting her to think he was lurking in the shadows with ill intent. The wind gusted, carrying his words away, and she didn’t hear and passed on her way.  

He saw her several more times, usually in the field beside the trees, though once at the far end of the row he was in. It seemed difficult to believe she could fail to notice his presence, but she never acknowledged him. She was young, maybe eighteen or so, and he assumed she was the daughter of one of the neighbours. When one of the brothers across the way asked how he was getting on, he mentioned his walks and how much he enjoyed them and added that there must be someone in his family who felt the same for he always saw her walking the trees. The brother could not hide his dismay at the statement and changed the subject. This piqued his interest and he began to ask around town about the Faulkenbourg Place. It seemed odd to him that the yard for what had obviously been an extensive operation had been allowed to fall into such a state. 

People were reluctant to speak on the matter. They would mutter something about the sisters and then talk of something else. It was very unlike the locals who seemed willing to gossip about anything, even with a stranger like him. It was only when he came across a story in an old newspaper while doing some unrelated research that he realized what they wouldn’t tell him. Hazel and Abigail, the McIntyre sisters had both loved Sven Faulkenbourg. He’d chosen the younger and in a fit of jealousy Hazel had murdered her sister, drowning her in a slough. At the time it was seen as a terrible accident and Sven had gone to Hazel for comfort while he mourned. One thing had led to another and soon they were to be married. 

They lived with Sven’s parents until they could build a place of their own, the very house he was renting. Sven discovered a red ribbon in Hazel’s things. There had been strands of red ribbon found under Abigail’s fingernails when she had been pulled from the slough. It had been noted at the time, but more as a curiosity. When Sven found the ribbon he understood what had happened and he strangled Hazel with it. He was hanged, one of the last to receive capital punishment in those parts and his parents moved away, unable to bear being in the house and on the land where such a tragedy had happened. 

Miscellanea

Miscellanea from the Lost Quarter and beyond.

Winter Comes Early to the Outpost

Snow covered over the road ahead and the stubbled fields that surrounded them, still drifting down from above. No one had come this way in some time for theirs were the first footprints to mark the trail and the snow was already to their ankles. The few trees they passed – short and shrubby, like all the trees in these parts – still had most of their leaves. Winter’s arrival had been sudden and unexpected, especially for the straggling band of travellers with thin coats and thinner shoes.  

On their journey north – flight would be more accurate – they had camped out in the shelter of those sorts of trees, for they tended to cling to lowlands where water gathered. Water, which had been problematic for much of their travel, would be no worry tomorrow. The creeks would be flowing again. But none of them were in any mood to spend a night in a snowbank. They were already cold and soaked through and it would be hard work to get any fire started to warm themselves. 

That was why when they came upon the smattering of houses that didn’t quite constitute a village, one of which included an inn of the old style, two stories and square, they went inside without any discussion among themselves as to whether it was wise. It wasn’t, but neither was staying outdoors for a winter’s evening in their thin coats and pants that they had hoped to have more time to find proper replacements for. The place smelled of mildew and disrepair, but they supposed so did they. A few locals, sipping harvest ale, gave them a careful once over, registering who and what they were, before returning to their muttered conversations.  

The innkeeper sized them up with a skeptical eye, weighing whether their money was worth the trouble. How many rooms, was all he said. They asked for the cost and there followed a back and forth that ended with an agreement for two rooms for the six of them, with meals included. Drinks would be extra. A girl was summoned from the back and sent out into the snow to let whoever would be cooking know. They looked longingly at the heavy coat she shrugged on. It was an hour before dinner appeared, during which they sipped at peppery harvest ales they couldn’t afford and tried to ignore the stares from the locals. The girl brought a great pot of barley soup, ladling out a bowl for each of them, and handing them day old bread to soak it up with.  

She looked at them with a fierce interest that worried them, sitting on a stool behind the bar, clearly wanting to speak with them. The innkeeper noticed as well and angrily banished her upstairs to ready their rooms.  The other locals kept their interest better disguised, though their eyes kept flicking in their direction and their talk grew lower and lower. One man left and returned twenty minutes later, which caused them some consternation. But they reassured themselves that the constabulary wouldn’t have a station in this place and it was doubtful anyone was willing to endure the weather to go summon one. They hoped. 

After they’d eaten four of them went up to wash and ready for bed while two other remained below to drink another ale and keep an eye on the locals and ensure no one had any plans. They retired upstairs only when the tavern had emptied and the innkeeper was cleaning up. Though they felt confident the constabulary hadn’t been summoned they still took shifts sleeping, one person in each room keeping watch.  

They left before dawn, slipping out onto the empty road in the darkness. The snow had stopped and again theirs were the first footprints to mark the way, which would make them easy to track but couldn’t be helped. They had reached the edge of the village when the girl appeared, dressed for travel in her thick coat and heavy boots. I’m going with you, she said, her breath clouding the air. They argued with her, telling her there was no place for her among them, that where they were going was no place for a girl like her. She let them speak their piece and repeated her words, adding: you won’t make it without me. There was a certainty to her gaze they could not argue with. 

Field Notes

Being a record of certain phenomena found in the environs of the Lost Quarter.

Summer Days and Summer Nights Are Gone

With the latest troubles down south an intermittent straggle of newcomers had begun to arrive in town. Most passed through on their way to other places. A few decided to stay longer, attracted by the cheapness of the rent, but when they struggled to find regular work they would move on, rarely lasting more than a month or two. The latest arrivals, a couple, had taken up residence in the Dunning place on the outskirts of town at the beginning of June. Most of the newcomers ended up there. It was a dilapidated eyesore that everyone agreed should have been torn down years ago. Instead Marvin had halfheartedly tried renting it for years without investing any in improvements and he treated these southern exiles as an unexpected windfall. 

The couple mostly kept to themselves and the locals didn’t press them. Their politeness, for which they were famed, was an armour to hold strangers at a careful distance. They were nice, kind even, helpful when asked, but they did not intrude into the couples’ lives and seemed to demand the same. Don’t tell us of your struggles and your hurts, we have our own and you are the cause. That was never said, but the couple felt the weight of it all the same in the way they were accepted but never quite welcomed anywhere they went. 

Summer went by with them still in the Dunning place. They kept the yard well, fixing the fence and planting a garden, enjoying its fruits. The man took a job in the grocery store, part-time, and they both had hours at the greenhouse. The woman was a teacher it was said, but obviously not accredited for these parts. The man’s former career was unknown, but it was obvious he hadn’t done farm work or anything like that, so no one was willing to trust him with their equipment. He was a good worker, Don said, and he wished he had more hours for him. 

Night began arriving earlier and earlier, a chill coming with it. Morning frost would be white on the lawn when they rose. The couple was still there, much to everyone’s surprise. They remarked on the abruptness of the change – the week prior had been blanketed with summer warmth – and were met with shrugs that said that time was over now.  Well, they knew about that, all too well. Everyone worried about how they would handle the winter if they were staying on. A few solicitous folks told them they should see about buying a good winter coat before the weather really turned. The couple assured them they had brought adequate winter clothes with them and the locals assured them they were wrong.   

Mornings the couple would walk together north down the gravel road that led from their house to the new elevators, those towering concrete structures, the tallest buildings for a hundred kilometres or more. During the summer they had marvelled at the crops in fields on either side of the road, at the brightness of the day even so early in the morning. Now their breath clouded the air and they went out later, waiting for the sun to rise. There was only stubble in the fields now, harvest finished. Overhead geese flew in formation, heading south. They would stand and watch them until they disappeared in the sky and then turn their backs to keep going on. 

Field Notes

Being a record of certain phenomena found in the environs of the Lost Quarter.

Everyone in Their Right Lane

She came into town at the end of summer, harvest in full swing in the fields. Come speak your grievances to me, she said, and the people came for they had many. It seemed it had been so long since someone had actually listened. She had an easy way about her, a smile that said she understood just what the problem was and how it might be solved. No matter the concern her answer was the same: it was not their fault and it certainly wasn’t hers. The dominion government that ruled them from far away – elected yes, but not legitimate – acted against them in all ways and needed to be cast aside. And there were others, newcomers from even further away, who had come here but did not belong and were creating trouble wherever they went.  

She was not the first to come this way, not by a long shot. Fifty years now, another gleaming politician coming to town filled with answers to the same problems. You would have thought people would get tired of it, but they liked being listened to, even if the problems they all promised to fix still persisted. It was an acknowledgement that they existed and to some extent mattered. She liked giving them someone to blame. It was largely forgotten she had been that way in years before, telling everyone their freedoms were under threat. Now that she was in charge, the tune had changed somewhat. Though she still told them they were right, this couldn’t stand, and these others must be dealt with. 

Once this had been a great land, they said, and she agreed. That is why we must hold on to everything we have tightly so we don’t lose more of it. The only way to do that, she said, was that everyone had to stay in their lanes and keep to their proper place. The dominion government should stay out of their lives. Town councils too. The only proper government was hers, because only she understood what was needed in these perilous times. Also, kids were getting weirder and weirder, talking in their indecipherable slang, dressing strangely and deciding they were one thing and then another. They especially needed to stay in their lane and avoid unnatural inclinations. Obviously outside influences were the cause of that, so books would have to be banned and curriculum restored to rote memorization and oaths of loyalty to better protect minds so easily influenced. 

That was needed everywhere in truth. People couldn’t be trusted to stay in their lanes either, as the few who appeared at the complaint sessions who disputed what she said made clear. The only way to ensure less government intrusion in peoples lives, which everyone agreed was the goal, was for everyone to do as they were told. It did not need to be said who would do the telling. Most of those who attended were happy to follow along. It was easier and felt safer to have someone who could tell them how the world was and why it was right and clever for them to do exactly what she said. 

Miscellanea

Miscellanea from the Lost Quarter and beyond.

The Dead Can Never Die

The wizards with their orbs and spells, their alchemy and astrology, and other arcane knowledge that only they had the learning to truly understand, or so they claimed, had spent years perfecting their spellcasters. Their ultimate achievement, long sought after. A spell that could raise other spells, that would not dissipate, but would instead remain integral across all time, capable of casting any spell.  

This required collecting all the learning on spellcraft in existence, collating it and rendering it accessible to the spellcaster. There were mistakes along the way. How could there not be? There were endless errors in spell books – wizards were secretive creatures after all and often slipped in errata to ensure only they would be the ones to know the spells. That didn’t even include the mistranslations, for spells had been taken from one language to another and back again over the years, and a spell that had begun transforming an eel into a princess now turned a prince into a frog. 

Still the wizards claimed the spellcaster worked. Not only did it work, but it could learn. Through trial and error it could correct the many errors that had entered into the literature. Any task, any potion, any craft or artistry, all could be subsumed by the spellcaster. Here then was the power of the old gods long vanished from all realms.  

Rulers and other elites were naturally intrigued by the promise. They had long been allied with the wizards. Together they had transcended all earthly domains of money and power and now lived in constant terror of losing it all. The promise of the spellcaster was the answer to all their dreams, for with it you no longer needed people. 

They were a problem, it had to be admitted. Those testy subjects who were constantly insisting upon the obligations they believed their betters owed them instead of being properly awed in the face of their obvious excellence and superior wisdom. Most had proven quite uninterested in the wizards’ last great idea, exchanging their minted coins for a magical Repository of Value, no matter how many times it was demonstrably proven to them that this was a far better thing than actual coin. It even had other uses, though the wizards were somewhat vague on those. They had many questions about the spellcaster as well and did not seem especially convinced by all the answers they were given.  

The wizards assured all that they would come around in due time. Having conquered all realms they turned to death itself, claiming they could escape our mortal bonds with eternal life. Not with the usual rubbish elixirs and potions, which everyone knew to be the work of charlatans. The spellcaster would be handy here for it would be able to invent new spells that would generate fresh organs and fresh blood to renew an aging body. The first few attempts at this went poorly. It seemed the wizards were stealing organs and blood from paupers and declaring them newly generated, causing the kind of scandal that brought the whole spellcaster project into disrepute. 

This led to much grumbling on all sides, so a new approach was needed. Time was the problem, it was declared. Its ceaseless march wore down everyone and everything. The answer was to hold the world still, keep everyone in their right place, unmoving. If they did everything correctly, they might even be able to wind time back on itself, reset events and restore the glorious past when everything had felt new and life had seemed limitless. Soon it would be. The spells were cast. The world was wound back like a resetting clock, the whole fabric of society groaning as countless numbers were crushed beneath those gears. 

The rulers applauded the wizards for their efforts. They complimented each other for their newly youthful vigour, though secretly each thought the others appeared much the same. Everywhere they looked there was stillness. No wind stirred. They all told themselves how wondrous it all was, how for the first time ever they felt at peace, all their desires met. Even as they did they found themselves looking over their shoulders. Old habit, they told themselves, one they would soon shake. But they couldn’t, for there was a sound somewhere that they couldn’t quite place, no matter how much they cast about in search of it. Like the roar of a waterfall heard at a distance. 

Field Notes

Being a record of certain phenomena found in the environs of the Lost Quarter.

The Hermit of the Hills

Nels came to the Quarter with three others in the early years of the century trying his luck on a quarter section. The other three sent for their families after they had broken the land and thrown up a shack, later ordering homes from the Eaton’s catalogue when they had money from a couple of harvests and their second quarter was handed over. Even after he got his second quarter Nels continued in the same shack, building a more permanent structure only after his first decade on the land. Many of the neighbours said this was little better than the shack he had been living in, though it did at least have a wood floor and a cellar. 

Nels was always a friendly presence, happy to chat with anyone in town, available to help with harvest or any work really. His neighbours looked forward to his regular visits to spend an evening at cards and he called three or four families once a week. As more settlers arrived, people wondered when he would marry. Many of the other bachelors who came in those years did find wives, either among the locals or from their original homes. Nels did not though, never going with any of the local girls, even when others encouraged him to. After a time all that sort of talk stopped as people accepted things for what they were.  

He never left the Quarter after homesteading, not even during the ten years of drought when so many others abandoned their farms, some not even leaving word or a forwarding address. More left with the second great war, travelling to far-flung lands and more still in the years after. The automobile was coming in wide use then and highways were being built. There were new opportunities everywhere. The Quarter was somehow both larger and smaller as a result. Fewer homesteads dotted the landscape and the farms were getting larger, while it was now possible to travel across most of its length in the space of an afternoon.  

People saw less of Nels as the years went on. Several of the families he stopped in to play cards with had moved on after the war. Tractors and other machines meant that agriculture was no longer a communal activity, though he did still drive truck for a couple of neighbours. Folks started talking about him differently too, though he hadn’t changed much. He was a man of his era, a time now past, when people were willing to throw away the lives they had been living, leave it all behind and take a chance on a far away land with no guarantees. Everyone was settled now, knowing nothing else and of the place in a way that Nels, and those who had arrived with him, could never be.  

At some point people began calling him the Hermit of the Hills, though he was always about and his half section was not especially hilly. Older siblings told younger ones about the terrible things that would happen if you wandered onto his land or into his house, which hid a portal to another demon-filled world in the cellar. If Nels knew about these stories he never said. He got diabetes in his later years and one of his feet took an infection which he neglected. Doctors took the leg to try to save him, but it was too late.  

He willed his land to one of the neighbours, the son of one of the men he’d come out with. Nels had always called on them for visits, so the first time they set foot in his house was after he died. It was a ramshackle place, as to be expected given he’d built it himself. The yard was littered with old pieces of equipment collected in piles that they supposed had some sort of logic to them. None of that surprised them, but what filled the cellar and one wall of his shop did. Hundreds of urns and vases and bowls, made from scrap metal and whatever else Nels had at hand. They were all finely made, intricate designs carved or painted on them. Beautiful in their strange way. Of another world. 

Miscellanea

Miscellanea from the Lost Quarter and beyond.

The Prophets

The Great Ruler, exalted by all, had restored Glory to the Nation and brought Harmony to people’s lives. Yet still there was disquiet in the great Nation. Enemies lurked, though he had thwarted so many, exiling them beyond the borders of the realm, from which his Viziers assured him they could never return. There were always more who appeared, who questioned the Harmony he had brought to all, who called him a tyrant or worse. How could they be so oblivious? His Viziers declared times had never been better, all thanks to him. 

He knew better than to trust them though. Some of them had turned out to be enemies of the Glorious Nation, poison lurking behind their smiles and whispers. Connivers, always looking to stand within the reflected glow of his Own Glory. He was tired of all these troubles and troublesome people, forever meddling. Destroying the Perfect Harmonious Nation he had restored to its lost lustre.  

Fortunately he had the Prophets to turn to. He had only to ask and they would tell him everything about what was going on in the world, even those things his Viziers tried to keep from him. Such marvellous inventions. Forever helpful and solicitous. Worth a dozen Viziers, certainly. With a simple query the Prophets would explain why the climates of other nations rendered them inferior, why the slope of the brow of so many foreigners determined their violent nature and limited intelligence. It also suggested why so many enemies remained within the Glorious Nation, for many citizens shared those same qualities, an artifact of earlier eras of miscegenation, which he had brought an end to.  

The Prophets also told him about the many failures of the medical sciences. So many unneeded deaths from experimental treatments foisted upon the populace by greedy industrialists. One of the first things the Great Ruler had done was bring an end to their reign of terror. Now it was the populaces True Duty to remain in Good Health. The Prophets assured him this would create a Nation and People of True Mettle, casting off all the impurities and its attendant weakness. 

After yet another meeting about trouble in the streets and defections by former allies, the Great Ruler had had enough. The whispering Viziers had outlived their purposes. When he queried the Prophets they agreed, assuring him they could do all that the Viziers could do and more. All of knowledge and civilization was there for them to access and use to determine the Most Perfect laws and customs of the Glorious Nation. They showed him the future, a future where he would hardly have to do anything at all but stand before the crowds and let them see his True Glory. In time he might not be needed at all. 

Field Notes

Being a record of certain phenomena found in the environs of the Lost Quarter.

Lost Ways

I lost my way. Everywhere I looked was both strange and familiar. The grass and the hills and the glistening slivers of water in the lowlands and the small clusters of trees huddled around them and the buckbrush and the sage and the wolf willow and overhead the aching blue of the sky and far in the distance the point where the sky and land merged. All places I might have passed by before, but lacking any landmarks I could orient myself toward. But that’s being lost isn’t it. Adrift. Nothing to hold onto. 

I’d run out of roads some time ago. Fences too. I came across the occasional cow path, though there were no cattle here, so I could not be sure which creatures had carved those trails. No one lived in these parts and it was hard to believe anyone had ever passed through, as I was now, let alone settled down to make a home. Somehow atop each rise I expected the horizon to shift and reveal a distant farmhouse surrounded by fields or the gleam of a highway or a cluster of houses nestled against the rail line. I knew those things were there somewhere beyond those empty plains, but ahead of me there was always more of this. I began to wonder if I had imagined the rest. 

This was something I had sought out in truth, looking for the spaces beyond the edge of habitation where civilization ran out. The Quarter was famous for it, though it made no sense to me. To look at a map was to see it bordered on all sides. The inhabitants warned me. Those were just lines on a map, but maps could not be trusted here. The Quarter was much larger than it appeared, larger by far than the dominions that surrounded it. You could get lost in them, easily, and never find a way out. 

There were ways in and ways out and those had to be carefully followed. These had been mapped, if that is what it could be called, and the locals followed those trails without fail. To leave them was to risk being lost as I now was. Utterly and completely.  

But I refused to believe them. The Quarter must end. The land must run into others. To the west there would be foothills and mountains beyond the plains, to the north the Battle River and forests. South and east were more plains, but of a different sort. Flatter, the land richer, the crops more bountiful. I was certain that if I marched off in any direction I would eventually find myself in those places. How could I not? The logic of the rest of the world had to hold here. 

Now I know the truth. The land just goes on. It does not become something else. If you told me it was larger than the world itself I would believe you. It may be so. It is a nether realm, the bounds of which I will never escape. I tell myself I can go no further, that I must turn back and hope that I can find my way out. But something else beckons me forward. How far, how deep, how vast. 

Miscellanea

Miscellanea from the Lost Quarter and beyond.

The Mask and the Void

What is a face but a mask obscuring all that lies within? The eyes are the portal to the soul they say, but how little they reveal. All our expressions are pantomimes, grinning and frowning as we think the occasion demands. But is it us there for all to see? We act as if it is so; how could we not? On that other road lies mistrust and madness, the loss of self. Yet, can we ever really say we know someone, know what is in their minds? Oh, they tell us true, so they say, but we all know how words obscure as much as they reveal.  

Do we have a secret self that no one can share, that is ours alone? Those thoughts that echo through the caverns of our minds, do we keep them hidden? I think, therefore I am and so forth. A solitary existence upon which no one can intrude. But are we ever truly alone? Even when we have sealed ourselves away, monks upon a fast, our thoughts are shaped in words and images, by all we have seen and done and who we have been with. We are mimics, all things to all people, as needs must. After all, what are we, in the end, without them?  

An absence, a yawning void. That is what is at our centre and we spend our frantic, furious days trying to give it some shape and meaning. But the only meaning to be found is each other, all of us, together.